Wednesday, August 24, 2011

listen...

you've told me
in so many
subtle and silent ways
that we would
never be

and in my darkness
i know i heard
but chose not
to listen

now my light
is getting stronger
and i find myself
listening and accepting
that we will
never be...

Saturday, August 13, 2011

another offer

i had another offer last night
one that was so very hard
to refuse
but i held strong
determined not to give in
to the moment-
and today i was hit
once again
with the reality
of the situation
the offer did not come
with all that i truly desire
and i doubt it ever will...

man and machine


i see you ride by
man and machine
out searching for answers
seeking your peace~
you ride her well
that machine
thighs holding her close
you instinctively know
every move she needs
every sound she makes
attuned to her every nuance
like a well-practiced lover~
perhaps that machine
is your one and only
the only mistress
you will ever truly love
the one constant in your life
always~

Sunday, August 7, 2011

today...

wondering....
why I accept the b.s. in my life

needing...
to stop

fearing...
the return of the darkness

feeling...
so numb inside

missing...
my passion

Saturday, August 6, 2011

trust

trust is a funny thing...
how is it that
i trust your opinion
& i trust your judgment
(most of the time)
i trust you to protect me
i trust you with my life
i trust your word
but i do not trust your words
i trust you with my body
but i cannot trust you
with my heart
will that ever change...
i can put my life in your hands
but not my heart~