do not judge me...

do not judge me
until you have walked
in my shoes
and felt the pain gripping
my heart
as i held my babies
breathing in their
beautiful sweetness
knowing that my goodbye
was taking me away
for hours, or days
or sometimes even weeks

do not judge me
until you have felt
the depths of my guilt
and tasted the salt
of my tears
shed as mile after mile
separated me from
those two cherished
pieces of my heart

so many fleeting moments
i've missed
never to have
a second chance
lost forever

so do not judge me
unless you've lived
my heartache, my agony
and still find me
at fault